The Low Mood

From the naked eye you see a smile A delightful smile of a woman who has everything What you don’t see are the bricks within the decorated walls The bricks that weigh down her emotions The bricks that fall on her heavy as she sleeps You can’t see the bricks she holds within herself So […]

Symbols & Indoctrinations

One way to separate an individual from a mental health label is to ask them their values.  Values are what separates each individual retrospectively. For example, one person may choose to live in a busy city to work for a top technology firm because they enjoy communication and applying their skills to the general population whereas […]

Scarcity and Abundance

The first step in emotional dysregulation and self awareness since my borderline personality disorder decided to take partnership back in my life (this time with cptsd that hadn’t happened before after managing to reduce the bpd to traits over the past three years) as I see things in black and white again, is to embrace […]

What does missing an antidepressant do to your brain!?

If you have a chemical imbalance within your brain, missing one capsule can have a devastating effect on your health and your life. I was subject to this. I was wallowing through life, replenishing my soul, afraid to dream of my shadows, afraid to break the eggshells I stepped upon until I spoke up. I […]

Till death do us part

A tree never forgets it’s roots right? Well nethier do people.  Observation is a gift. It’s a resemblance of being open-minded. I’m not one of those people who says “Get over yourself” or “You’re just being silly” if someone opens up to me about a problem. I’m the type of person who understands real world situations and what […]

Have you ever let a friend down because of your anxiety?

I have, and this has always given me tremendous guilt. Guilt because when my brain doesn’t want to co-operate and you’re worried about how you will seem. You just want to apologise to your friend’s but they understand when you’re not well but slowly they begin to walk away from you like you’re a burden […]

The difference between ‘thinking’ and mental health conditions

So we’ve all heard the saying – ‘If you can change your thoughts you can change your life.’ Yes this is true…   But…   Mental health conditions can affect an individual neurologically, physically and mentally that can have a substantial impact on everyday life. Some mental health conditions require medication to keep the brain […]

Positive activities completed this morning 💓

Just a normal day, I woke up, made myself a tea, and did some anagrams to gain interpersonal skills and allow myself to think better cognitively. Which lead me with an idea: 1. Create a spider diagram of one descriptive word in the centre that describes your core personality and create anagrams of all those […]

The Harp 📝

“The angel’s most beautiful voice is the harp. The brass stricken harp. The passionate soul that vibrates through the strings of a golden instrument is the symphony of the empath”.  Don’t doubt, believe – write to your heart’s content Natalie Small

Signs of emotional abuse – health and social care

I thought I’d do a post so others can identify the effects/aftermath of emotional abuse in others that I learnt on my health and social care course. Becoming upset easily Preoccupation with the abuser Questioning of self-sanity Isolation/Losing friends Unexplained Anger Irritability Behaviour Change Loss of interest in previously enjoyed hobbies/commitments Self-harm Self-neglect Depression Hypervigilance […]

Creative writing: The Innocent Boy

This is his story. He walked towards the mirror and knealt down on the night of a full moon, it’s reflection mirrored in the glass. He stopped. His inner evaluative speech triggered his thoughts to reconcile the attachment developments he experienced as a child as he remembered all he had courageously fought through; the mirror […]

Is it time to rethink borderline personality disorder?

I thought I’d do a post after seeing a post on Facebook about a kind hearted young girl taking her own life because of borderline personality disorder caused by abuse. I just want to point out the effects of borderline personality disorder and how it may impact on caregivers: BPD are loving individuals They are […]