Recognising Manipulation to save lives

The effects of manipulation are diverse. It can control your thoughts, your behaviours, isolate you from your family and friends, create emotional instability, traumatise the brain to the point you’re repetitively thinking about the manipulation over and over again. Your thoughts don’t run in alignment with what you say. Your brain begins to use suppression […]

The Isolated Borderline

To the partners of the sufferer. I know how hard you try to help your loved one. I know how hard you try and make communication. The days your loved one curls up in bed not ready to face the day whilst you put food on the table, the rapid mood swings with such emotional […]

The mind of the borderline

We can create, we can love, we can heal  We can connect patterns, we have obsessions with positivity counteracting the depression within our brains, fighting for survival on a day to day basis. The stigma attached to the condition is degrading and decreases the worth of the survivor. Notice how I use the word survivor? […]

Have you ever let a friend down because of your anxiety?

I have, and this has always given me tremendous guilt. Guilt because when my brain doesn’t want to co-operate and you’re worried about how you will seem. You just want to apologise to your friend’s but they understand when you’re not well but slowly they begin to walk away from you like you’re a burden […]

Another day gone

I write this as I’m ready to take the next journey in my life. I don’t want to be accepted. I just want a life. When I say ‘life’ – I’m all alone. I feel lonely, I feel like everyone around me are having children and I’m just growing through life focusing on positive objectives […]

Mental health Awareness Post

#MentalHealthAwarenessPost Take away the shame of the stigma… Here’s my story of how I defeated my depressive symptoms… In September 2018 my brain changed. I knew something was wrong but I couldn’t fathom what and would think about everything I’ve learnt and compare my symptoms to my prior knowledge. Over the years I’ve had CBT, […]

Mental health conditions affect men just as much as women

One of my good friends is a man with the same condition as me and he expresses himself so compassionately I see him as a warrior, a survivor, someone with potential who doesn’t even know it. I was struggling since I was a child. Why is this relevant? You cannot predetermine the course of a […]

A conflict of values

I’m afraid of lifts but admire the open space I’m afraid of people yet admire sociology and people I’m afraid of my past but admire looking towards the future I’m afraid of inconsistency yet admire new directions I’m afraid of relationships yet want to be loved I’m afraid of being left alone but yet love […]

How do we increase our awareness of our selves?

How do we build upon our self-esteem? Write a list of what you value about yourself and how you can make a difference to other people’s lives Write down a list of characteristics you want and believe you already have them Write down a list of positive achievements and attributes you’ve created in your life […]

Thankful what I have 💗

I’m alone in the world. I’m about to embark on a journey to the Scottish Capital within a month. Wanting an education and a degree meant so much to me and I messed that up for myself by getting involved with toxic people and can only get a year funding so appealing it. Anyone should […]

What does remembering trauma feel like?

Trauma – many of us have gone through a lot in our lives but when do our traumas consume us? When they have a significant impact on our day to day functioning. Triggers can be anywhere. A survivor of trauma can develop coping mechanisms when their brains go into overdrive during the fight/flight response and appear angry […]

Depression

Have you ever looked around you and people all stable and laughing, the walls closing in on you, the hallways swallowing your mind whole, like you’re pushing yourself through quicksand, like your brain is slow and grounded, like you have no control over your anger? In the lowest moments do you sit there and listen […]