Have you ever let a friend down because of your anxiety?

I have, and this has always given me tremendous guilt. Guilt because when my brain doesn’t want to co-operate and you’re worried about how you will seem. You just want to apologise to your friend’s but they understand when you’re not well but slowly they begin to walk away from you like you’re a burdenContinue reading “Have you ever let a friend down because of your anxiety?”

Does it matter what others think about us?

As a borderline I often worry about what others think of me. How they see my image. How they see me as me. Are they able to see my struggles although more often than not I’m met with – you look fine. You’re okay. You tend to look deeper at your inner self at thisContinue reading “Does it matter what others think about us?”

A conflict of values

I’m afraid of lifts but admire the open space I’m afraid of people yet admire sociology and people I’m afraid of my past but admire looking towards the future I’m afraid of inconsistency yet admire new directions I’m afraid of relationships yet want to be loved I’m afraid of being left alone but yet loveContinue reading “A conflict of values”

What people think of you is none of your business 💗

People have bought me down so many times in my life and I want to share my story because I take personal responsibility for my actions, I take personal responsibility for my deterioration and I’m moving on from the past and building fresh. Do not believe people when they try tell you who you are.Continue reading “What people think of you is none of your business 💗”

Depression

Have you ever looked around you and people all stable and laughing, the walls closing in on you, the hallways swallowing your mind whole, like you’re pushing yourself through quicksand, like your brain is slow and grounded, like you have no control over your anger? In the lowest moments do you sit there and listenContinue reading “Depression”

What side of the brain do you use?

  What side of the brain do you use? The interaction between both is a game of volleyball, a confusing element within its features, a comprehensive account of our genetics and memory processes… Skills are what motivates us. Experience is what shapes us. Atoms. That’s all we are atoms.  

Is it time to rethink borderline personality disorder?

I thought I’d do a post after seeing a post on Facebook about a kind hearted young girl taking her own life because of borderline personality disorder caused by abuse. I just want to point out the effects of borderline personality disorder and how it may impact on caregivers: BPD are loving individuals They areContinue reading “Is it time to rethink borderline personality disorder?”

Emotions equal strength 💕 A creative piece.

I’m strong in myself. I tell myself that everyday. In between working through my self help books I’m writing blogs, creating new poems, new writing, new ideas, healing myself emotionally by letting the emotions out and not being afraid to shadow them to the outside world through writing. I’m not afraid to be alone. It’s peaceful. I’mContinue reading “Emotions equal strength 💕 A creative piece.”