Self-reflection and creative ideas

Many people ask me where my creative ideas come from. They come from my experience, the come from the fireworks of chemicals zapping through my fragile mind.

Am I ashamed of this? No. Why should I be?

Its not about what is wrong with us, it’s about how we can improve our own mental health and wellbeing without affecting those around us. We all can’t have the same opinions. It’s like when people judge your past and assume you would grow up to be a negative individual searching for more pain to add to your life that you’ve already experienced.

This isn’t true. If it was – nearly everyone would have broken down and lost themselves completely by now. Sometimes we don’t even realise our strengths until we are thrust in the darkness, neglected, having that ambition for a better and prosperous life.

Keep going. Because it will happen.

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The Tables Turned

You’re on a different path now, the world has shown you the way forward, what you need to do . . .

. . . You’re inspired, fulfilling, compassionate, eccentric, intrinsic, introverted but extroverted, both a reader and a writer

. . . They didn’t expect you to come so far but you did and for that young soul be grateful for that’s a blessing – you made it and you can teach others how to too

Whos they?

They’re the one’s whos souls are still coal black and their eyes so misty – their delusion was that you were the problem 💞

 

What people think of you is none of your business 💗

People have bought me down so many times in my life and I want to share my story because I take personal responsibility for my actions, I take personal responsibility for my deterioration and I’m moving on from the past and building fresh.

Do not believe people when they try tell you who you are. . . 

Past is past. Whatever you’ve done, whatever someone else has done just remember you’re still breathing. You’re still here. People can only get to you if you allow them to. Knowledge is power. 

Heal from within. Remember who you are before the drains sucked in your soul. Don’t ever allow others to bring you down to a level where you doubt your sanity, where you are manipulated into believing things that aren’t true. That’s not living.

Living is being blessed, appreciative and loving towards others. Don’t be like them. You’re not in alignment with who you really are once you’ve let them destroy your worth. You deserve better.

If I was perfect, I would not be writing this! I’ve made mistakes I’m not proud of. I’ve broken a few hearts which I never intended to do. I’ve fallen for people who wanted me for one thing which is not self-respect, it’s not being worthy of myself. It’s not giving me that future prosperity I’m attaining.

Instead of asking someone why its taken them so long to back away from someone who causes them pain or how can you love someone who causes you pain? Tell them you’re proud they left when they could. 

Love doesn’t discriminate my darling, and I’ve yet to meet a perfect person walking on this planet. Love just happens. 

The right love will come to you when you start believing in yourself and your capabilities. Don’t lower your worth to fit in with those who don’t appreciate you.

Children are not weapons. Children should grow up to be able to make their own sensible decisions. They should not be subject to personal views based on personal experiences because we all have different experiences.

Wave goodbye to those who bring you down and remember how strong you are.

You’re worthy and you got this 💕👋

Depression

Have you ever looked around you and people all stable and laughing, the walls closing in on you, the hallways swallowing your mind whole, like you’re pushing yourself through quicksand, like your brain is slow and grounded, like you have no control over your anger? In the lowest moments do you sit there and listen to the vibrations of the brain looking at the world in a different way, like the sand meets the shore of the strongest tide, a mind that never stops. A mind that never stops writing, a mind that never stops thinking, a mind that is positive but a brain as a competitor fighting for survival – the soul telling you to stay strong and have hope, the world around you getting tired of listening to your inner pain, the world around you believing you don’t appreciate what you have except you do but it’s not you that’s ill. It’s your brain. Except you know this. After many failures you’re aware of this but you stay strong, you keep at your goals and aspirations because it gives you hope and you give hope to others experiencing the same things. You pace, you sit and wonder, wonder what went wrong, wonder why your ears hear differently, your eyes see the world in a different way. You just wonder. Wonder why the stable mind can’t understand how you feel because they haven’t been there. They haven’t been where you are. It’s okay not to be okay. You may not be perfect, you may not have made good decisions in the past but your brain has a power. A power beyond your wildest thoughts. It’s a brain with passion, a brain with emphasis, a brain that has a better insight of reality.

What side of the brain do you use?

 

What side of the brain do you use?

The interaction between both is a game of volleyball, a confusing element within its features, a comprehensive account of our genetics and memory processes…
Skills are what motivates us. Experience is what shapes us. Atoms. That’s all we are atoms.

 

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Is it time to rethink borderline personality disorder?

I thought I’d do a post after seeing a post on Facebook about a kind hearted young girl taking her own life because of borderline personality disorder caused by abuse.

I just want to point out the effects of borderline personality disorder and how it may impact on caregivers:

  • BPD are loving individuals
  • They are not dangerous
  • They are warm and caring
  • They isolate themselves when they feel too overwhelmed, they become angry when they are afraid
  • They experience extreme mood swings when faced with interpersonal trauma and/or distress
  • They think with their heart
  • Its one of the most commonly recognised personality disorders
  • During a crisis the sufferer loses control – as a result this can lead to suicide or intense emotional reactions to triggers that relate to the sufferers interpersonal traumas.
  • They have problems interacting with others and dissociate to mask their inner pain
  • They feel lost and abandoned the majority of the time
  • If intensely bullied/abused may experience delusions and hallucinations
  • Is often confused with Histrionic Personality Disorder, dissociative identity disorder, bipolar disorder, ptsd and narcissistic personality disorder.
  • It’s not a label, it’s neurological and affects the areas of the brain responsible for controlling mood
  • Creativity, drama therapy and music therapy helps with restoring the individual to a normal level of functioning
  • Can affect relationships and are at risk of further abuse
  • Are often criticised by the healthcare professions who don’t understand during a crisis the illness can take over the mind of even the most high functioning borderline
  • This needs to be removed from the personality disorders category because it’s the only personality disorder to have the highest suicide rates and personality disorders start before the age of four -bpd is the result of abuse.

 

Integration of creativity with mental health 💙

Since studying my online creative writing course I’d like to share something valuable which has inspired me to integrate creativity with mental health and write to the government to see if we can provide free creative degrees to those with mental health conditions because I honestly believe it would help people identify their own personal needs and what they need help with.
The 4 P’s of creativity are Person, Process, Press, Product. This post is about Person. I’m also using this method for my own wellbeing through my journey.
In creativity ‘Person’ refers to the intelligence of an individual, temperament, habits, attitude, personality, behaviour, self-defence mechanisms, and how we feel about oneself.
So how does this relate to mental health?
Personality: What are your positive traits? What kind of person are you? What do you enjoy that makes up you? Write them down.
Intelligence: Intelligence comes in many different forms. School grades don’t measure intelligence they are generalised. Some people could be extremely practical but lack intellectual ability and some people can be extremely creative but lack social communication skills. Everyone is intelligent in their own way.
Temperament: What makes you angry? What has consumed you? What has preceded with your ability to overthink? What situations do you find yourself in that make you angry and base that on your own personal experience.
Self-defence: How do you react to situations and people that intensify your mental health symptoms? How does this make you feel? What can you do to communicate effectively when trying to establish the care and support that you need?
Behaviour: What do you do that intensifies your behaviour? How can you distinguish your negative behaviours from reality? Write down a list of your behaviours that you want to change.
How do you feel about one-self? Do you have problems identifying your own needs, do you lack energy and have irritability, do you find that stress triggers your symptoms to the extreme. What do you like about yourself? What are your hobbies and interests?
Everyone makes mistakes, I’m not a perfect individual, but I’m inspired to make difference. My traumas have inspired me to use my experiences and use my gift of compassion to deliver new ideas and concepts and not be afraid of adversity because we want change for our children’s future. We want change for stability. We want change. People often criticise themselves for what they’ve done to others that intensifies guilt and it makes us react but we ALL make mistakes – there is no perfect person. But we need to work together to create new ideas to lower mental health rates, I’m leaving the past behind me because I’m doing a lot better on my medication except still have some personal issues to work upon. I’m writing fiction books to express my own inner pain. I’m working on myself because I refuse to allow a mental health ‘label’ define me as a person. I refuse to allow others to define me based on their own thoughts and their own actions. I’m just removing myself from the negative and building a positive future for myself and want others to know it’s not too late to build something new within yourself. 💕