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The Beauty Of The Borderline

When we think of the word “personality” disorder we automatically assign an individual to the description or the theoretical meaning of what is written about the condition rather than look at ways of separating the person from the mental health condition.

Borderline Personality Disorder is a mood disorder and can be treated with a mood stabiliser (except never ask a psychiatrist or psychologist for one) they’ll criticise the condition before even knowing a person which is why the mental health crisis is becoming more prevalent in the western world. It’s a neurological brain condition that can be treated although the lack of funding and research means that people have to suffer unnecessarily without their voice being heard. I assumed that professionals would want to understand the person although in some cases this wasn’t the case. I was met with “Just get on with your life.” Why allow someone to deteriorate your condition. Yes I accept their views. Except they haven’t experienced the same experiences I have. They were lecturing me on empathy and compassion like it is wrong to think with your heart. I like thinking with my heart. Except yes in professional occupations I use my head.

I realised that it wasn’t a personality disorder. It borderlines between PTSD and Bipolar affective disorder when I experienced the worst effects of it I ever had. I was constantly paranoid, looking over my every shoulder, expressing my traumas, expressing my weaknesses, asking for a mood stabiliser before commencement of group therapy and CBT but I couldn’t get a mood stabiliser although medical professionals asked me to be persistent I knew that the stigma attached to borderline personality disorder meant my voice wouldn’t be heard. I knew because they were being contradictive in their views about me. I knew because I lost control but I’m using the experience and building upon the new. I have to accept that not everyone has the same views or opinions on a mental health condition and majority influence is a sociological factor that separates others from getting the mental health support they need so sometimes we can only do what’s best for ourselves and encourage our own developments as well as inspiring others because if we don’t the world will take from us the love we’ve always given out.

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Signs of emotional abuse – health and social care

I thought I’d do a post so others can identify the effects/aftermath of emotional abuse in others that I learnt on my health and social care course.

  1. Becoming upset easily
  2. Preoccupation with the abuser
  3. Questioning of self-sanity
  4. Isolation/Losing friends
  5. Unexplained Anger
  6. Irritability
  7. Behaviour Change
  8. Loss of interest in previously enjoyed hobbies/commitments
  9. Self-harm
  10. Self-neglect
  11. Depression
  12. Hypervigilance and jumpy
  13. Fear/confusion of making decisions and choices
  14. Emotion and Mood changes
  15. Lack of concentration/forgetfulness
  16. Physical Withdrawal; particularly in an environment that is a reminder of the abuse
  17. Weight loss/weight gain
  18. Anxiety

If the abuse is prolonged over a long period of time can lead to BPD/and/or CPTSD or PTSD.

Please be aware when the victim is under intense distress it takes time for them to come to terms with a traumatic experience or situation – they may not seem themselves and there’s no time limit on the after-effects of emotional abuse.

People often complain about verbal abuse but subtle emotional abuse damages the lives of men, women and children.

Equal opportunities and communications relevance is a must to safeguard and protect a community as a whole. Some after-effects are so extreme that the victim may even come across abusive and delusional as they’re making sense of their traumatic experiences depending on the nature and the circumstance of the interaction between the abusers and the victims.

This post is for awareness purposes only. 

Protect a loved one, save a life 💙

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Depression

Have you ever looked around you and people all stable and laughing, the walls closing in on you, the hallways swallowing your mind whole, like you’re pushing yourself through quicksand, like your brain is slow and grounded, like you have no control over your anger? In the lowest moments do you sit there and listen to the vibrations of the brain looking at the world in a different way, like the sand meets the shore of the strongest tide, a mind that never stops. A mind that never stops writing, a mind that never stops thinking, a mind that is positive but a brain as a competitor fighting for survival – the soul telling you to stay strong and have hope, the world around you getting tired of listening to your inner pain, the world around you believing you don’t appreciate what you have except you do but it’s not you that’s ill. It’s your brain. Except you know this. After many failures you’re aware of this but you stay strong, you keep at your goals and aspirations because it gives you hope and you give hope to others experiencing the same things. You pace, you sit and wonder, wonder what went wrong, wonder why your ears hear differently, your eyes see the world in a different way. You just wonder. Wonder why the stable mind can’t understand how you feel because they haven’t been there. They haven’t been where you are. It’s okay not to be okay. You may not be perfect, you may not have made good decisions in the past but your brain has a power. A power beyond your wildest thoughts. It’s a brain with passion, a brain with emphasis, a brain that has a better insight of reality.