Have you ever looked around you and people all stable and laughing, the walls closing in on you, the hallways swallowing your mind whole, like you’re pushing yourself through quicksand, like your brain is slow and grounded, like you have no control over your anger? In the lowest moments do you sit there and listen to the vibrations of the brain looking at the world in a different way, like the sand meets the shore of the strongest tide, a mind that never stops. A mind that never stops writing, a mind that never stops thinking, a mind that is positive but a brain as a competitor fighting for survival – the soul telling you to stay strong and have hope, the world around you getting tired of listening to your inner pain, the world around you believing you don’t appreciate what you have except you do but it’s not you that’s ill. It’s your brain. Except you know this. After many failures you’re aware of this but you stay strong, you keep at your goals and aspirations because it gives you hope and you give hope to others experiencing the same things. You pace, you sit and wonder, wonder what went wrong, wonder why your ears hear differently, your eyes see the world in a different way. You just wonder. Wonder why the stable mind can’t understand how you feel because they haven’t been there. They haven’t been where you are. It’s okay not to be okay. You may not be perfect, you may not have made good decisions in the past but your brain has a power. A power beyond your wildest thoughts. It’s a brain with passion, a brain with emphasis, a brain that has a better insight of reality.
Your dialectical mind is shaping your behaviour. You’re every memory, every book, every experience, every person you’ve ever met entwined within the person you are. You’re effortlessly evolving. You’re building upon radical acceptance, you’ve taken accountability for situations that are unjust, you’ve built walls to protect yourself, you’ve allowed yourself to see-saw between the past and the future without focusing on the present in between. You’ve become neurotic. You’ve become situational, you’ve become an emotional component of the environment and your feelings have become numb. You’ve escaped adversity, you’re on a road to adventure, a road to new prospects, a road to a new future, a road where optimism meets fate and you become who you really are 🎭