I have, and this has always given me tremendous guilt. Guilt because when my brain doesn’t want to co-operate and you’re worried about how you will seem.
You just want to apologise to your friend’s but they understand when you’re not well but slowly they begin to walk away from you like you’re a burden that just intensifies your pain and gives your brain that shudder it doesn’t want to feel.
A vibration and a gulp.
A cognitive distortion and overgeneralisation resulting in four factors.
Anxiety, sadness, helplessness and depression.
It’s always better to just go for any positive opportunity you can because you may surprise yourself at your abilities. You may get there and realise not everything is bad as it seems. Be in a safe environment where you can feel loved and cared for and can project your positive emotions on to others is always the way to go.
If only I could apologise to my friends. If only I could make up for the lost hours when I hid myself away. If only I could apologise to the opportunities in the past.
If only medical professionals accepted me for who I was. If only I could become successful when describing my pain to at least help someone out there.
I hear you, I know you’re struggling.
I feel you, I can feel your pain.
I see you, I can visualise your trauma.