Your past doesn’t define you – what matters is what’s in the moment 💙

The meaning of optimism:

Individuals with depression can be optimistic and have positive thoughts just as extreme as their negative thoughts. This doesn’t define the individual but their expression of pain is the result of chemical imbalances in the brain.

I’ve had a difficult past but want to make a positive impact to the world. I’ve been used, abused, taken advantage of but no one can take away the person I was born as. I pick myself up and move on because I believe I have the strength and ability to do well in life regardless of anyone’s opinions or standardised beliefs.

I create, I make, and I believe – I’ve always been surrounded by an ocean of negative people but I’ll never compare to them 💓





Focus versus distractions ✍🏻

045EE290-A402-44F8-B372-C9E4D43AD5A1How we feel about ourselves projects into the fabric of others perceptions. We are often solitary, we are often confused, our ideas are so complex that our brain has unusual levels of activity and we can succumb to others opinions because we are different and indifferent at the same time.

The brain functions according to the experiences of its input. It is magnified in excellence, magnified in colours, magnified in the complexity of the social norms of mordern civilsation.

One emotion I’ve never felt is jealousy. I’m comfortable in my core identity. I believe that everyone has the capacity to achieve what they want in their life – what I do know is I’m enlightened by my flights of ideas 💗


Exploring emotions through DBT 📜

Instead of acknowledging the negative emotions I feel intensely I’ve used the DBT therapy workbook and listed below the positive emotions I’d like to feel daily:

  • Joy
  • Happiness
  • Loved
  • Loving
  • Pleased
  • Relieved
  • Smart
  • Strong
  • Lively
  • Enlightened
  • Energetic
  • Excited
  • Glad
  • Happy
  • Content
  • Relaxed
  • Hopeful
  • Bubbly
  • Blessed
  • Blissful
  • Curious
  • Delighted
  • Proud
  • Respected

List ways & possibilities to achieve these emotions for a consistent and positive life.


The 4 P’s of Creativity integrated within the mental health sector


Person – 

Create a spider diagram with Person in the middle representing yourself and point the creative influences that define you so for example what you love and why you love that particular objective. Add your flaws/anything you wish to improve.

Process – 

Look at the spider diagram and add practicalities and tasks to do to reach an abundant nature

Press – 

Share your experiences with the Time To Change Mental Health Campaign

Product – 

Create a product that delivers your message you’re representing

Reference: Future Learn


Is borderline personality disorder really a personality disorder?🧐

Borderline Personality Disorder ⭐️Borderline Personality disorder is a type of personality disorder that occurs as the result of abuse or neglect hence fits into the personality disorder category. It is the only personality disorder to show significant active change on MRI scans but from a personal point of view as a sufferer I believe it’s a psychiatric illness that can be relieved through psychological therapies and positive affirmations and associations although there’s no specific drug to treat it yet.

To avoid a borderline mental health crisis avoid anyone emotionally abusive who intends to emotionally abuse, avoid negative associations and negative unstable relationships, avoid too much stress as a BPD mental health crisis can last for a long period of time from experience without intervention or appropriate support.

It is highly stigmatised in health professions because of the way it is portrayed in the media but the illness isn’t an individual’s personality or identity. You can have positive people with BPD and negative people with BPD. Individuals suffering from BPD are not manipulative as this was removed recently in the DSM. The black-white thinking comes across as manipulative and the hallucinations and delusions that magnify during relationships except not all relationships are effected. If an individual is understanding towards your borderline personality disorder then the more likely you’ll have less problems in interpersonal relationships. Personally I feel Borderline Personality Disorder borders between Complex PTSD and bipolar disorder as it affects the same areas of the brain.

You have a variety of skills, you are intelligent, creative and optimistic. You always believe in a better world.


Positive choices and creative abilities 💓

  1. Write a list of the feelings you want to feel that you want to feel daily
  2. Write a list of your goals and aspirations
  3. Listen to classical or meditation music daily
  4. Write down list of hobbies and create a template to commit to those activities
  5. Create a healthy diet plan
  6. Sign up to courses that make you feel good within your soul.
  7. What is your soul telling you? Focus on the way you feel as a person
  8. Write a list of what you value and a list of your positive memories
  9. Join the time to change campaign


At the age of 11 I performed on stage at Norwich Theatre as a Samurai Warrior (background) part of my school.

In 2016 I attended the Sylvia Young Theatre School for two years to build upon my confidence and loved the creativity of learning about method acting and the meisner technique. This lead me to building a portfolio and obtaining extra work which I’m still looking forward to build my portfolio for for the future.

List of films/tv/music videos I’ve been in since 2016 to treat my borderline personality disorder.

Tokyo Taboo – Papercut (Music Video) 2017 – Role: Student

With Confidence – Waterfall (Music video) – background extra – 2017

Skoda Advert ft Paloma Faith – advert (crowd base) – 2018

Hate Story 4 – media paparazzi/guest (featured extra) Bollywood Production 2017.

Bink App Commercial (featured role – shop assistant) 2017

BASF Commercial – (extra) 2018

Thanks for the memories – mini series – (extra) 2017

Budweiser World Cup Commercial (extra) – 2018

Cricket World Cup commercial (extra) 2018

Office assistant for a commercial website (2018)

At the age of 9 I had an original piece of writing published in a book.


Level 3 in Social Studies & Humanities

Level 3 in Health & social care

8 GCSE’s Grade B & C

Most of my support artist work has been voluntary & a hobby due to improving my own self and well being and becoming a contributing member of society.

Voluntary Work Experience:

Archives – Hitching Museum (voluntary) 2008

Work experience:


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