If you’re feeling depressed listen to a piece of music that is the opposite of the way you feel – this can shift you into mania, feel your thoughts multiplying feel yourself achieveing and being capable of anything, see so many bright colours, so many lights, do so many magnificent things even when your mood is low. Crazy right?
In the midst of it all you just want to take control and tell yourself to stop but you can’t. It’s so euphoric it feels amazing but depressing at the same time. Is that even possible?
“I can’t help myself it’s human nature, human nature, who says who we are meant to be” – Zara Larsson
You can love the world in a moment. You love the way it’s constructed. You love the different shapes of the buildings. The buzzing of the brain, the prefrontal cortex battling with your soul saying just stop and your soul saying stabilise and calm down please but you just can’t. You just want to Write. Write. Write. You’re enjoying the atmosphere but it’s amaking you agitated and irritable at the same time. You can feel the episodes getting worse but it’s so amazing. You know what you’re dealing with within yourself so you just write and write and write to take off that aggravated edge. Who knew mood swings could be so painful and magnificent at the same time.