Borderline Personality Disorder and it’s association with politics.

Britain has voted for conservative to lead the United Kingdom for another five years. Amazingly, the majority of the voters were working class who have been on long demanding waiting lists.

This means far more pressure for us with mental health conditions as we will unable to get the long term intensive support we need to recover.

But why is Borderline Personality Disorder such a big issue and why is it stigmatised?

It is regarded as a disorder of  “personality” when it’s a disorder of mood and a disorder of interaction with others. The sad thing is, many people do not know what this means. It means during times of crisis when people are struggling, when they are having their anger outbursts, when they are being pushed out of their work environments, when they are bullied and told well BPD is who you are; remember BPD is an illness caused by trauma and the over diagnosis of this condition is markedly worrying because people with BPD are not dangerous, we are scared. Other personality disorders are nowhere near as debilitating than borderline personality disorder.

Let’s improve mental health care services and lessen the stigma. The only evil I see is the people making cuts on local services, cutting police numbers, damaging our NHS and neglecting the needs of the vulnerable. We are not defined by our condition. We suffer from our condition.

So I ask please kindly reblog this post to end the mental health austerity and formalise a whole new treatment for Borderline Personality Disorder.

We are in pain and we are struggling to heal.

 

Things the government can do to improve mental health:

1. Fund the social services and NHS

2. Stop the cuts of the disabled and the vulnerable.

3. Invest in a mental health allowance so during crisis instead of a company paying statutory sick pay the government can pay mental health allowance.

4. All pip and ESA assessments done by a medical professional and psychiatrist so people aren’t playing the system.

5. Build 24 hour mental health safe units for people to go to when they are in crisis and suicidal rather than spending months on waiting lists.

6. Provide social services with mental health training support because sociology and psychiatry are two different worlds and knowledge is power.

 

Anxiety of the borderline

My GP sat me down the other day and said theres something else going on isnt there?

I realised why I broke down recently. I tried really hard to fix myself and when I met someone else he said to me “why him? And apparently I need glasses if I think hes good looking.” It wasn’t about the looks though. His soul is a nice person and I thought I would be okay but he said i go hot and cold and i wasnt realising. I did cry without him knowing many times whenever he judged me but didn’t say anything because he had his own issues to deal with. What hurts me the most is I wasn’t ok. I only just met him. He completely misunderstood what I was trying to say because I was scared of this happening. This anxiety. I keep thinking hes going to hurt me. I’m constantly on edge. I feel like the walls are closing in on me. I was so so honest about my mental health conditions I didn’t let anyone know me as a person because they are my protective barrier to stop me from getting hurt. The thing is the words he told me when we fell out has damaged me because I know I’m not good enough for anyone right now but I didn’t ask to like this person. I just did. Just I write because my soul is damaged. It’s a jigsaw puzzle. My GP sat me down the other day and said theres something else going on isnt there. I said no. They knew something was up. But I dont want to keep bothering the doctors when the nhs is failing. I need to learn to take care of myself.

BPD and CPTSD are the same condition…here’s why.

Borderline Personality Disorder and Complex PTSD are often mistaken for one another.

Growing up I was bullied, endured repetitive abuse, became anxious, had a fear of people but it came to my attention recently what if these two conditions are the same condition?

Let me explain this from an ‘out of the box’ point of view. When you make a recipe such as spaghetti bolognese the ingredients you add or don’t add change the taste. Borderline Personality Disorder is described as originating from trauma and abuse whereas other personality disorders are described as existing before the age of four.

Why is CPTSD consistently mistaken for BPD but not any other diagnoses or personality disorders?

Is there a cure for the borderline afterall?

What if we change the recipe of the treatment methods…would we get different results? Yes, we would.

How do you want to be loved?

My idea of a relationship is someone who will never give up on you no matter how hard it is, someone who appreciates you for your flaws, someone who enjoys walks in nature with a kind loving heart, someone who thinks of me as worthy rather than an option.

Although we all dream of this the reality is quite lonesome. I’ve stayed single for an extremely long time because what I look for in a person are the emotions that money can not buy. In this society people expect you to not have any baggage, to bounce from one person to the next when I cannot be that person and I won’t. I will not have multiple relationships under any circumstances because that isn’t stability.

I haven’t met the right one yet and people say to me all the time that I’m beautiful and someone will be lucky to have me and I’ll find someone easily. If there’s no connection I will not sleep with them or waste my time because the last thing this world needs is any more broken hearts.

Yes I’m a borderline, it doesn’t mean we jump from relationship to relationship because we don’t. We stand and we deal. We fight for ourselves. We fight for love, compassion and to bring this world back to a sociable, loving state.

I have no apologies for who I am.

This is me.

Writing is your safe place

Whenever you feel suppressed or controlled by the world, writing is your safe place. The art of putting feelings into words is a talent in itself.

Been judged recently? Been ridiculed and criticised? Been compared? Been discarded like you don’t even matter?

There will never be another you. People cause the most pain and they can either break us or make us. You’re not the opinions of those who judge you. You’re not a label. You’re a human being with a passion to be part of this world.

Having emotion isn’t a burden. It means you have compassion – a quality that most people have to artificially create. . .

I’m happy today because I’m not in a breakdown. My brains calm. I’m happy and comfortable alone. And I’m not in the state I was in a year ago so I’m already healing.

You can too.

🥰💖

Precipitation

Time does not have a value. We as humans created that value by adding hands on a clock and calculating the sunrise to the sunset.

Money does not have a value. We created that value by pricing everything that we deem a human would need.

So what is value?

Value is your family, your friends. Family is the ability to share hope to the world and give out light.

Value is loving yourself deeper than anyone else has whilst not being arrogant or self-absorbed.

Value is appreciating every moment we have in life.

Value is not bringing others down.

A day without sertraline 100mg

A day without sertraline for a BPD brings on sudden intense mood swings and changes to our brain’s biochemistry. It’s similar to someone coming along with a magic wand and transforming your character into someone you don’t even know or even worse, a ghost.

You begin to feel your emotions heighten without the medication. You experience emotional intense flashbacks. You just want someone to care but not to get too close. You want to hide in a dark room all alone and cry yourself into oblivion and ironically you enjoy it. You enjoy feeling again but you also remember the stability of being on medication. I was speaking to my cousin earlier and her local GP in Enfield said to her “Just be happy” even though she has bipolar and bpd? Like easy for them to say. Sometimes that can hurt those who take the courage to ask for help. Isn’t it about time that psychiatrists worked alongside general practitioners. After all, doctors examine the body but psychiatry examine the mind yet these blogs from the eyes of a sufferer helps research. It helps development to find a cure for all.

The Pain of the Borderline


Love hurts us all or should I say the wrong type of love. Love can make us feel afraid, feel desperate not to lose someone, or it can turn the other way.

Within an instant a borderlines pain can be extravagantly magnified in altitude to the point their pain is expressed in verbal threats which they don’t mean. Although this may classify as domestic abuse, the borderline is unwell. Domestic abuse is different. The perpetrator has capacity to know what they are doing but with the borderline their illness is preventing them from forming a singular identity and healthy relationships because they are afraid of what would happen next. Their anxiety magnifies but most of the time their words expressed in anger are defence mechanisms for comfort and support. It’s like they are screaming out for help wanting to feel validated, appreciated and loved. I think if we helped a borderline channel these negative feelings then we could heal them and their families. Love, patience and understanding is all it takes.

I am a borderline.

A mindful day

It’s been a while since I wrote anything at all that would influence the reader to be mindful of their surroundings and make a difference in this world so I’m going to start by discussing the phenomenon “The Secret” and explain the concept of mental health and mental illness.

I know what you’re thinking. How is philosophy and science related? We can’t measure the exact thoughts we have except our frequency can be examined. So let’s begin with explaining what the secret really is about.

The secret describes a law of attraction model where we can influence the circumstances, people and events around us just by thinking about it. I need to be really clear about this so the reader, as in you, understands properly. Okay so if we focus all our attention on something we want we are more likely to achieve it as our perception shapes the outlook of our universe except in regards to mental illness this isn’t that simple. It’s like when you lose an adult tooth. Its unlikely it will ever grow back because it’s not the mind but the body that teeth are part of. I bet you’re wondering well where am I going with this?

Really think about it. Take a second and to think well biological mental illnesses are part of the body but affect us mentally. Yes there are such things as chemical imbalances because I’ve felt it. I began to believe in the illuminati once and my outlook was beyond powerful. It was like I was predicting the future before its occurrence or that could have been a hallucination but can never tell.

Even though we have these great pholosophical concepts that keep us motivated to improve ourselves and our lives, we should never just assume that those with mental illnesses can just heal themselves by thinking about it because sometimes the illness is all theyve ever known so they don’t know how blessed it feels to live without mental illness.

Remember, keep science going and find new treatments. Less stigma and more understanding is a necessity.

The Borderline Expression

Do you ever see patterns? Patterns in life, in embroidery or even the night sky?

Patterns are everywhere. Our brains are wired to follow a specific pattern that is familiar to us, hence we may get ourselves in all sort of silly situations by being a little too trusting.

Borderlines tend to analyse and form new ideas based around these patterns. Borderlines can sometimes think at a higher frequency where their ideas come to light.

Take a trip to a waterfall and feel the air in the silent breeze. Think. Build your inner frequency.